in the morning i open things

i woke up at eleven
with a negative outlook on life.

it transcended depression
and maybe emptiness.

i woke up and thought "i am fucked."
but with such an enormous violence
that it made me want to
blame my shortcomings on society
or something.

i woke up and thought "i am so fucked."

i called you and you.
you told me to drink soup.

i hung up.
i felt slightly less fucked.

- Raffi Kiureghian

(added 08.26.08)

today the sky is empty and enormous and
today i will feel okay about my existence

i am waiting for an improbable
life changing experience.

one that will make it easier for me to look at people and
not feel out-of-control and depressed.

their faces are sad and frustrating.

their faces are my faces.

they become mine and
it is slow and cold and i, being asleep, can only
sit and let it all fall on me.

then i sit up and look at the walls sarcastically.

there are white spots in the sky tomorrow.

your face tomorrow will not be mine and tomorrow
i will not feel like shit. i will not look at you and at
them and feel fucked.

there are watermelons in the sky tomorrow.

- Raffi Kiureghian

(added 08.26.08)