"What does he know, anyway," she
told herself as she settled into her car.
Then again, what did she know? She’d
been in Hollywood for well over a year and
hadn’t had one acting gig. Not even
a bite. And porn was acting, right? Maybe,
she figured, the guy had a point. After
all, she now had the body and the looks
for it. And she certainly had the jugs.
Plus, she had heard that the money and the
hours were great. So, sitting there in the
car that day as she pondered her options,
Dolores del Dunning was born and Shirley
Keller was no more.
Within
six months she stared in five movies, the
third of which got her name in bold letters
on the video box. She was, if not a star,
than at least an actress. For it did take
quite a bit of acting to do what she had
to do in order to make it in the industry.
The men, after all, weren’t exactly
lookers. There were no Brad Pitts doing
porn, she found. Though there were a lot
of Adam Sandlers. She did like the people
she met, though. Most were actors and actresses
like herself who couldn’t find work
in legitimate movies. And there was a certain
comradery amongst her peers. They were in
the same boat. Sex, after all, did make
them closer than your average coworkers.
And yes, as she had heard, the money was
terrific, especially for the hours she had
to put into it. She made even more doing
personal appearances. That she liked best.
She loved being ogled at. Loved signing
her autograph. Loved the elation she felt
when someone recognized her.
And
that’s how she found herself that
fateful day as she sauntered into the club
that broadcast her name in lights: happy
as a clam to be doing something that brought
others as well as herself so much joy. She
was a star, even if only in certain circles,
and she was ready to perform for her fans.
At least that’s what she had planned.
She didn’t, unfortunately, get that
far. Just as she was making her way on stage,
through the dense crowd of admiring men,
someone spilled their drink on the floor,
and her shiny, black stilettos fell out
from under her. She went down like a sack
of bricks. Her head smacked hard against
the back of a chair and she was out cold.
Though
she wasn’t completely unconscious.
She was, if anything, acutely aware of her
being. Her soul, if you will. And this was
neither a scary nor unpleasant feeling.
It felt like she was floating on air. Then,
in the distance of her vision, for she could
see the space around her, came a bright,
white light. It grew and grew until it completely
engulfed her, bathing her in its warmth.
And from this light came a voice that permeated
the very fiber of her being. It said, succinctly
and with a great roaring boom, "Dolores,
use your talents in my name." And that
was all that was said. A moment later Dolores
batted her eyelids and found herself surrounded
by the club’s employees and patrons.
She
knew in an instant what had happened. She
had slipped. She had been knocked out. God
had spoken to her. She was as certain of
the last thing as she was of the first two.
Felt it down to her very bones. But God
called her Dolores, not Shirley. What could
that mean? There was no time to think of
an answer, however. Within seconds an ambulance
arrived and she was carried out on a stretcher,
much to her embarrassment. The management
had insisted. If she was hurt, they were
liable. But, in truth, Dolores felt fine.
Radiant, even. At peace.
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